(This song is about that intuitive feeling, before you make a big decision, that everything is gonna go south post said decision and then trying to double down on said decision, instead of potentially rectifying what may or may not be a mistake. )

i saw this coming
felt it in the back of my throat
they tell me to try to loosen up
just let it all go
it's a choice that you make
i can't make it
someone make it for me
you sort of fake it till you make it
till you make it look easy

and everything you wanted always weighs less than what you need
how come everything I wanted always costs more than what i think?

i kept the car running
on a turncoat of hope
tried to open the car door
but you wouldn't let go
it's the voice that i hate
the one that shakes
from my head, shoulders, and knees
that says everything i want to say, but the exact words that i mean

and everything you wanted always weighs less than what you need
how come everything I wanted always costs more than what i think?

i tried to write down
but it don't make sense
to anyone that's listening
in my defense
i wasn't sober when I wrote it
I was drunk as hell
I wasn't sober when I wrote this
I was drunk as hell

I tried to ride it out
but it don't make sense
to all my friends listening
i don't make sense
i wasn't sober when I wrote it
I was drunk as hell
I wasn't sober when I wrote this
I was drunk as hell

If i could take it back, i wouldn't
If i could take it back, i should
If i could take it back, i wouldn't
Even if I knew i could
If i could make it up, i wouldn't
If i could make it up, lord knows that i should
If i could make it up, i wouldn't
Even if i knew i could